Tuesday, January 26, 2010

░♛♥~HAPPY~❥☺░™

well... i passed my exam!!!
HAPPY is all i can say!!!
^^

with that certificate,that's mean my responsibilities are more than before...
still got a lots of thing that i have to learn...
actually i feel nervous,scare...



my wish for now:
be a good,competence nurse...
be a nurse that my parents will proud of...


GOOD LUCK...





::xoxo::

Saturday, January 23, 2010

░♛♥useless guy...❥☺░™

yesterday,the people that i hated most called to my house and try to get my phone number through my mom... gosh... guess what...my mom was too kind at that time and gave him my number... of course,he messaged me after that...
when my mom told me about that,i was totally shocked!!!
why he still wanna keep in touch with me? i don't wanna know the latest update about him...even when he die, i also don't wanna to get involve... why don't him just get lost from my world... he is damn useless....he borrowed some money from my bff... then he just run away without returned the money...when my bff wanna get back those money,he didn't admit that he borrowed her money... fuck off lar...
DON'T DISTURB ME ANYMORE,USELESS GUY!!!
DON'T RUIN MY DAYS!!!
::xoxo::

Friday, January 22, 2010

░♛♥blur...❥☺░™

just finished my works today...fuh...damn tired...actually i am quite disappointed with my self... why i can be so blur till now? may be i am still not prepare for work... lolx (again??? )

actually....i feel very stress... it's not easy to work there... hope i can become a competence people like they do now...
sometimes,i felt i am very stupid and useless... haiz...
"confident"....where are you... i need you now...
::xoxo::

Thursday, January 21, 2010

░♛♥脆弱的我。。。❥☺░™

脆弱的我,终于在今天崩溃了。。。说出来,真的很不好意思。。。 原来本小姐的受压指数并没有我想象中高。。。生活在这个世上并不容易。。。
接下来,还有更长远的路要走。。。 加油!!!别人都可以办到,我也可以的!!!



::xoxo::

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

░♛♥人类呀,人类呀。。。❥☺░™

今天是我开工的第三天。。。现在的我,并没有感觉到很开心。。。以前那种冲劲突然间不见了。。。我只感受到无比的压力及累。。。这几天都好忙 ,我的腿好累呀。。。因为不停地走来走去。。。 :P
在这几天里,我发现到“人类”真的是一种说一套做一套的“动物”。。。在你的面前说好话,那里知道在你背后就说些难听的话。。。每个人都带着一副很善良,美丽的“面具”。。。 在“面具”的后面,永远都不知道真正的“样貌”是如何。。。表面看上去,气氛好像还蛮不错因为感觉上每个人都好像很友善。。。但永远都不知道他们在背后会做些什么事情。。。突然之间觉得好恐怖,可怕,好累。。。
难道“大人们”的世界真的是如此?为何要这样呢? 不明白。。。我想这个问题永远都不会有解答。。。 才发现,之前的想法有点天真。。。这世界就是如此,不能也不会改变。。。
现在的我只能对自己说:“欢迎来到大人世界。。。从此以后生活就跟以前不一样了。。。”



好好加油吧。。。 咬紧牙根,眨一眨眼,5年的时间就过去了。。。




::xoxo::

Monday, January 18, 2010

░♛♥~想家的小孩~❥☺░™

曾经何时,城市里的生活是我梦寐以求的生活。。。以前,还真的迫不及待想过来这里生活。。。总觉得城市永远都是最好的。。。喜欢城市里的气氛,冲劲,还可以随时随地的逛街,去夜店等。。。
久了,可能我也老了。。。有时会觉得家乡的生活,还比城市好! 真的。。。现实中的城市,充满着虚假,压力,忙碌,危险,甚至还给我一种很陌生的感觉。。。还蛮讨厌那种感觉的。。。
家,永远都是最好的!!! 没有什么东西,或用金钱就可以买得到的。。。现在的我,真的很想家。。。真的!!! 想念家里的一切一切。。。如果可以回家,心情 就因此兴奋,高兴起来。。。如果我爸妈知道的话,我想他们一定很高兴吧。。。想不到以前爱玩,叛逆,不爱回家的小孩,竟然也开始想家了。。。
时间一天一天的过,我也慢慢地长大了。。。再也不是以前那位爱玩,叛逆的小孩。。。家的感觉,永远没有任何东西可以取代!!!




::xoxo::

Sunday, January 17, 2010

░♛♥Orientation weeks...❥☺░™

well... actually i just finished my 2 weeks orientation...so gonna start work tomorrow...
hmm... the first day i went to hospital,i felt damn stress... maybe i heard too many negative sides of my hospital so i gave a lot of tensions to myself... after reached hospital,we started to intro ourselves to others, manager of people capital department told us about the rules of this hospital, ice breaking section with director of nursing,deputy of Don,sisters... managers from different department also came to give us some intro about their department in hoping that we can cooperate in the future... my hospital is a kinnda of "7 star hotel " hospital so that is why the rules are quite strict...since my hospital just started 1 year ago,so maybe that why got lots of negative feedbacks... but i think still got lots of time to improve... maybe others hospital also face the same problems??? lolx... besides that,my hospital owns the high technology equipment like infusion pump...wow... that really made me feel so amase...with that new equipment,less harm/complications to patient... oh ya... stemtech lifeline also is one of the comapany of my hospital... besides that,my hospital is famous with fertility... my hospital has many services that can help the couples who can not get pregnant like ivf... i never think of my hospital will have this kind of things!!! that made me felt so amase once again... lox...
following by that,was our theories and practical sections... i felt very nice course we able to refresh back the skills... if not,we will do a lot of mistakes then the patients will start to complain... well...the patients in private are more demanding than gorvernment...since they pay a lot,so they also hoping the best service from us...
from that program,i realize that,beside nursing care,the other important elements is money... if we do not provide good service,no patients will come then no payment to us... that line always been emphasize by the different managers... it is true... that is the reality of the world... no one will work free for you expect charity...
i'll start work in med/sur ward tomorrow... feel happy, nervous... the sister seems like do not like me very much... opps... gonna be a hard time for me... hope not... hope that is my illusion only... hahaha... starting from tomorrow,another journey has started... i will facing a lot of things no matter good or bad... hope i can go through everythings cuz i am the worrior!!! xD really hope i can be "the nurse"... :P


::xoxo::

Saturday, January 2, 2010

░⁂❣H1N1? ♛☺░™

i realize that my body's immune system is low lately cause me sick again... wuwuwu...
yesterday i went to see a doctor...he asked what's wrong with me? i said:having sore throat a week then cough then feeling week,tired, my head felt heavy,and slightly fever... the doctor showed a face of shocked...then he asked some more questions like where i stay now? where i went lately? do my family member sicked like me?after that he diagnosed me as having "urti" (upper respiratory tract infection)... then i said: i also having urti last month... his face showed more shock!!! lolx... after all the questioning,he started to do auscaltation on my chest... findings : lung function is good but got a little bit obstruction in the upper airway... plus my tonsil is redden...
actually i'm sick cause i get wet in the rain plus da sore throat...lolx... maybe the doctor thought i'm having h1n1,even my bf also had the same thought...
must really take care myself then...gonna start my work soon...i can not work if i always sick... gonna start my healthy plan soon... lolx...


~~~ xoxo ~~~

Friday, January 1, 2010

░⁂放下?❣░™

说实话,到现在我还放不下那件事。。。虽然口口声声说算了,事情已过,但我知道我其实还放不下。。。 有时还会回想她们所做的一切,顿时,怀恨,伤心,不解的心情又在的到回来。。。有时候真的想大骂她们。。。有时候又不解为什么她们要这样做,难道当面说有那么难吗?还是她们就是这样?难道她们不知这样做真的很伤我的心???她们当然不知。。。
很多我其他的朋友都说:算了吧,事情已经过去,就让它过去。。。为何你还在理会她们的感受?难道她们这么做时有理会到你的感受?
所以每次我都需要很长的时间来“回复”我自己。。。过了,就算。。。就当做人生的一部分。。。就当做一个教训,让我以后不要像她们一样来对待别人。。。
我真的从那件事情中学到很多东西。。。让我学到要真心对人,不管他人对你做了什么事情,当然防备心不可少,不然到最后,受伤的往往又是自己。。。
虽然我现在没有投靠任何的宗教,但是,我深深地相信“因果循环”,这件事情。。。现在你如何对人家,以后你也会得到相同的待遇。。。上天是公平的,上天不会偏帮任何一个人。。。