░♛♥~April update... ~❥☺░™

wow...time pass by so fast! now already april...
many things happen while i'm away from here...



my day fills with work.... beside work,still work...
everyday work... lolx...



feel damn good when having off day and rest at home...
it's good cause can take a rest and prevent me from become a shopaholic....
lolx...


i realize something...
i'm not like before...
mean?
i also not sure but nowadays is different form before...
changes take place every time...



does changes mean it's a good sign or bad?
no one knows...
so just wait and see...







suddenly craving for make up... lolx... xD
who knows later i'll post my pic of make up... huh!









::xoxo::

░♛♥changed...❥☺░™

due to some reasons,i decided to change my blog's url...


and here we are,my new blog's url:

http://joeymichiko.blogspot.com/




haha...




::xoxo::

░♛♥one day with my baby...❥☺░™

today is a public holiday...
i'm so lucky because i can get the holiday...



yesterday night went for a comedy movie...
spent a really good time with my baby...




原来简单就是美。。。
虽然只是一个很普通的约会，但我却觉得无比的开心，幸福。。。




love u....
hehe... ^^







::xoxo::

░♛♥so happy i could die... ❥☺░™

this is my favorite song in the latest album "the fame monster" from lady gaga...
love it...
enjoy... ^^




I love that lavender blonde
The way she moves
The way she walks
I touch myself can't get enough
And in the silence of the night
Through all the tears
And all the lies
I touch myself and it's alright

Just give in
Don't give up baby
Open up your heart and your mind to me

Just know when
That glass is empty
That the world is gonna bend

Happy in the club with a bottle of red wine
Stars in our eyes 'cuz we're having a good time

Eh-eh
Eh-eh
So happy I could die
Be your best friend
Yeah I'll love you forever
Up in the clouds
We'll be higher than ever

Eh-eh
Eh-eh
So happy I could die
And it's alright

I am as vain as I allow
I do my hair
I gloss my eyes
I touch myself all through the night
And when something fall out of place
I take my time
I put it back
I touch myself
Till I'm on track

Just give in
Don't give up baby
Open up your heart and your mind to me

Just know when
That glass is empty
That the world is gonna bend

Happy in the club with a bottle of red wine
Stars in our eyes 'cuz we're having a good time

So happy I could die
Be your best friend
Yeah I'll love you forever
Up in the clouds
We'll be higher than ever

So happy I could die
And it's alright
Happy in the club with a bottle of red wine
Stars in our eyes 'cuz we're having a good time

So happy I could die
Be your best friend
Yeah I'll love you forever
Up in the clouds
We'll be higher than ever

So happy I could die
And it's alright





::xoxo::

░♛♥bye cny... ❥☺░™

新年酱就过了。。。

说实话，今年的新年一点都不爽。。。没什么气氛，超闷，无聊的。。。 但红包比我想像中多。。。哈哈哈。。。


新年完了。。。有什么值得我去期待的呢？ 每天做工，放工。。。好闷啊。。。做工真的超压力的。。。


至于工作方面。。。比以前好很多了，但还是很压力。。。



希望一天比一天好。。。




::xoxo::

░♛♥结婚？❥☺░™

但我们刚刚开始的时候，很多人都在催婚。。。当然，只是开玩笑，我没当真过。。。


现在的我们在一起已有一段时间。。。他的家人，朋友，甚至亲戚都在催婚了。。。如果我的父母当时没反对的话，我想我早就结婚了。。。 哈哈哈。。。



说真的，我不觉得我已准备好去结婚。。。婚姻不是2个人的事，而是2家的事。。。这种人生大事不能随便做决定。。。 婚姻里包含很多的责任，当然也需要放弃自己的自由，与朋友的时间。。。结婚后，再也不能像以前一样，为所欲为。。。



我一些的亲戚都给我一些过来人的意见。。。结婚前，要尽情享受人生，去玩个够，赚个够。。。当你玩够，赚够，才结婚也不迟。。。




那天后，我才发现我根本都还没准备好去结婚。。。我不想结婚后，才来后悔当初的决定。。。




除了婚姻，其实还有很多事我也没准备好。。。




好压力呀。。。







::xoxo::

░♛♥why?❥☺░™

sometimes i do not know why...
why i keep repeating do those mistakes...
suppose to be zero defect but why i keep repeating them???
really feel disappointing on myself...





after i wear that cap...
i feel more stress than ever because my responsibility is increasing...
the superiors expect more in me...





i really scare i do something wrong...
really...





it is not easy to be a grown up person...
i missed my college life...
i missed my babes, the times that we spent together...
less stress...





it is hard for me to get back those life...
different story now...
well...impossible for me to get back also...
although i dislikes the life now,but i know i still need to move on...






::xoxo::

░♛♥ welcome FEB... ^^ ❥☺░™

Time pass very fast,now already February...

In the previous month,i felt dam stress... (actually now i also still got that feeling... lolx)
But never mind course learning process is always taking place... Got damn many things that i need to discover and learn...


The most happy thing is i get 4 days holidays for my cny course i thought i will not get any holidays for cny... that made me felt sad for few days...
Although just 4 days only... never mind, i will get more holidays next year... hahaha...



ALL THE BEST to me then...





::xoxo::

░♛♥~HAPPY~❥☺░™

well... i passed my exam!!!
HAPPY is all i can say!!!
^^

with that certificate,that's mean my responsibilities are more than before...
still got a lots of thing that i have to learn...
actually i feel nervous,scare...



my wish for now:
be a good,competence nurse...
be a nurse that my parents will proud of...


GOOD LUCK...





::xoxo::

░♛♥useless guy...❥☺░™

yesterday,the people that i hated most called to my house and try to get my phone number through my mom... gosh... guess what...my mom was too kind at that time and gave him my number... of course,he messaged me after that...

when my mom told me about that,i was totally shocked!!!

why he still wanna keep in touch with me? i don't wanna know the latest update about him...even when he die, i also don't wanna to get involve... why don't him just get lost from my world... he is damn useless....he borrowed some money from my bff... then he just run away without returned the money...when my bff wanna get back those money,he didn't admit that he borrowed her money... fuck off lar...

DON'T DISTURB ME ANYMORE,USELESS GUY!!!

DON'T RUIN MY DAYS!!!

::xoxo::

░♛♥blur...❥☺░™

just finished my works today...fuh...damn tired...actually i am quite disappointed with my self... why i can be so blur till now? may be i am still not prepare for work... lolx (again??? )

actually....i feel very stress... it's not easy to work there... hope i can become a competence people like they do now...

sometimes,i felt i am very stupid and useless... haiz...

"confident"....where are you... i need you now...

::xoxo::

░♛♥脆弱的我。。。❥☺░™

脆弱的我，终于在今天崩溃了。。。说出来，真的很不好意思。。。 原来本小姐的受压指数并没有我想象中高。。。生活在这个世上并不容易。。。
接下来，还有更长远的路要走。。。 加油！！！别人都可以办到，我也可以的！！！



::xoxo::

░♛♥人类呀，人类呀。。。❥☺░™

今天是我开工的第三天。。。现在的我，并没有感觉到很开心。。。以前那种冲劲突然间不见了。。。我只感受到无比的压力及累。。。这几天都好忙 ，我的腿好累呀。。。因为不停地走来走去。。。 :P
在这几天里，我发现到“人类”真的是一种说一套做一套的“动物”。。。在你的面前说好话，那里知道在你背后就说些难听的话。。。每个人都带着一副很善良，美丽的“面具”。。。 在“面具”的后面，永远都不知道真正的“样貌”是如何。。。表面看上去，气氛好像还蛮不错因为感觉上每个人都好像很友善。。。但永远都不知道他们在背后会做些什么事情。。。突然之间觉得好恐怖，可怕，好累。。。
难道“大人们”的世界真的是如此？为何要这样呢？ 不明白。。。我想这个问题永远都不会有解答。。。 才发现，之前的想法有点天真。。。这世界就是如此，不能也不会改变。。。
现在的我只能对自己说：“欢迎来到大人世界。。。从此以后生活就跟以前不一样了。。。”



好好加油吧。。。 咬紧牙根，眨一眨眼，5年的时间就过去了。。。




::xoxo::

░♛♥～想家的小孩～❥☺░™

曾经何时，城市里的生活是我梦寐以求的生活。。。以前，还真的迫不及待想过来这里生活。。。总觉得城市永远都是最好的。。。喜欢城市里的气氛，冲劲，还可以随时随地的逛街，去夜店等。。。
久了，可能我也老了。。。有时会觉得家乡的生活，还比城市好！ 真的。。。现实中的城市，充满着虚假，压力，忙碌，危险，甚至还给我一种很陌生的感觉。。。还蛮讨厌那种感觉的。。。
家，永远都是最好的！！！ 没有什么东西，或用金钱就可以买得到的。。。现在的我，真的很想家。。。真的！！！ 想念家里的一切一切。。。如果可以回家，心情 就因此兴奋，高兴起来。。。如果我爸妈知道的话，我想他们一定很高兴吧。。。想不到以前爱玩，叛逆，不爱回家的小孩，竟然也开始想家了。。。
时间一天一天的过，我也慢慢地长大了。。。再也不是以前那位爱玩，叛逆的小孩。。。家的感觉，永远没有任何东西可以取代！！！




::xoxo::

░♛♥Orientation weeks...❥☺░™

well... actually i just finished my 2 weeks orientation...so gonna start work tomorrow...
hmm... the first day i went to hospital,i felt damn stress... maybe i heard too many negative sides of my hospital so i gave a lot of tensions to myself... after reached hospital,we started to intro ourselves to others, manager of people capital department told us about the rules of this hospital, ice breaking section with director of nursing,deputy of Don,sisters... managers from different department also came to give us some intro about their department in hoping that we can cooperate in the future... my hospital is a kinnda of "7 star hotel " hospital so that is why the rules are quite strict...since my hospital just started 1 year ago,so maybe that why got lots of negative feedbacks... but i think still got lots of time to improve... maybe others hospital also face the same problems??? lolx... besides that,my hospital owns the high technology equipment like infusion pump...wow... that really made me feel so amase...with that new equipment,less harm/complications to patient... oh ya... stemtech lifeline also is one of the comapany of my hospital... besides that,my hospital is famous with fertility... my hospital has many services that can help the couples who can not get pregnant like ivf... i never think of my hospital will have this kind of things!!! that made me felt so amase once again... lox...
following by that,was our theories and practical sections... i felt very nice course we able to refresh back the skills... if not,we will do a lot of mistakes then the patients will start to complain... well...the patients in private are more demanding than gorvernment...since they pay a lot,so they also hoping the best service from us...
from that program,i realize that,beside nursing care,the other important elements is money... if we do not provide good service,no patients will come then no payment to us... that line always been emphasize by the different managers... it is true... that is the reality of the world... no one will work free for you expect charity...
i'll start work in med/sur ward tomorrow... feel happy, nervous... the sister seems like do not like me very much... opps... gonna be a hard time for me... hope not... hope that is my illusion only... hahaha... starting from tomorrow,another journey has started... i will facing a lot of things no matter good or bad... hope i can go through everythings cuz i am the worrior!!! xD really hope i can be "the nurse"... :P


::xoxo::

░⁂❣H1N1? ♛☺░™

i realize that my body's immune system is low lately cause me sick again... wuwuwu...
yesterday i went to see a doctor...he asked what's wrong with me? i said:having sore throat a week then cough then feeling week,tired, my head felt heavy,and slightly fever... the doctor showed a face of shocked...then he asked some more questions like where i stay now? where i went lately? do my family member sicked like me?after that he diagnosed me as having "urti" (upper respiratory tract infection)... then i said: i also having urti last month... his face showed more shock!!! lolx... after all the questioning,he started to do auscaltation on my chest... findings : lung function is good but got a little bit obstruction in the upper airway... plus my tonsil is redden...
actually i'm sick cause i get wet in the rain plus da sore throat...lolx... maybe the doctor thought i'm having h1n1,even my bf also had the same thought...
must really take care myself then...gonna start my work soon...i can not work if i always sick... gonna start my healthy plan soon... lolx...


~~~ xoxo ~~~

░⁂放下？❣░™

说实话，到现在我还放不下那件事。。。虽然口口声声说算了，事情已过，但我知道我其实还放不下。。。 有时还会回想她们所做的一切，顿时，怀恨，伤心，不解的心情又在的到回来。。。有时候真的想大骂她们。。。有时候又不解为什么她们要这样做，难道当面说有那么难吗？还是她们就是这样？难道她们不知这样做真的很伤我的心？？？她们当然不知。。。
很多我其他的朋友都说：算了吧，事情已经过去，就让它过去。。。为何你还在理会她们的感受？难道她们这么做时有理会到你的感受？
所以每次我都需要很长的时间来“回复”我自己。。。过了，就算。。。就当做人生的一部分。。。就当做一个教训，让我以后不要像她们一样来对待别人。。。
我真的从那件事情中学到很多东西。。。让我学到要真心对人，不管他人对你做了什么事情，当然防备心不可少，不然到最后，受伤的往往又是自己。。。
虽然我现在没有投靠任何的宗教，但是，我深深地相信“因果循环”，这件事情。。。现在你如何对人家，以后你也会得到相同的待遇。。。上天是公平的，上天不会偏帮任何一个人。。。